i don't know.

i don’t know.

My favorite go to answer is “I don’t know.” This is rather frustrating to those who want to know more. I can’t give you what you want because I don’t know what to say, how to feel, or how to voice my thoughts or opinion. I don’t want to offend you or come off wrong. I want you to understand me and where I’m coming from. I want you to get me. But I don’t know how to do that.

Often times I overthinkmy next move. By now you should all know that I’m learning to just leap. Leaping is scary, but completely necessary. When it comes to leaping with my feelings I can’t do it. I just don’t know how to do that. I think about that person’s feelings and that makes me cancel my feelings.

“It’s obvious I’m not handling the situation well. I’m just overreacting”

It’s not healthy for me to think that way. My friends and love ones are on me heavily about this topic.

“What does Cadesia want?” Cadesia wants to just breathe.

I don’t want to hurt myself, by trying to avoid hurting someone else’s feelings. I don’t want to live my life walking on egg shells. I can’t keep everyone happy and neglect my happiness. I have to learn that I’m not being rude or coming off aggressively. I’m simply changing the “I don’t know” into “This is how I feel…” I think I deserve the right to feel that way. After all, Cadesia has feelings too.