Insecurities pt.2: My Hair

Insecurities pt. 2: My Hair

As a woman, I value my hair. I’ve always wished my hair was more that it appeared to be. I would look at the girls around me with their long and beautiful hair and wished that mine was the same. My hair always made me feel less beautiful. When I had relaxed hair, I would look at it with such embarrassment. Even my classmates would make me feel insecure about my hair.

“Your hair is thin.” “You should stop getting relaxers.”

On December 19, 2013, I made the decision to stop getting relaxers. I wanted to see what my hair would be without the creamy crack. So I big chopped my hair, and started living life with a tiny fro. It was the scariest thing I’ve ever done.

“Why would you go natural?” “You look crazy.”

Those are things I would say to myself. Some days passed and I didn’t receive any bad comments from my hair. But other days I didn’t expect people to react to my hair the way they did. Don’t get me wrong, I still had days where I felt like I looked like a scarecrow, and my hair just wouldn’t cooperate. I remember a period in time where I cried about my hair just about every day.

“My hair isn’t growing!” “It doesn’t look right!” “I wish my hair looked like hers!”

I had to  find out what worked for me and what products my hair liked. Yes, my hair has to like a product for it to work! Once I developed a regimen, my opinion of my hair went up. It literally took me until this year to completely accept my hair.When my hair doesn’t look the way I want it, I accept it.

My hair is beautiful! Having natural hair has helped my see that beauty. I accepted the one thing that kept me down. It's tough being a woman and knowing that hair equals beauty in most eyes. The true beauty is finding love in the way God made you.  It's not perfect and I’m moving forward with overcoming some of my insecurities by saying I LOVE MY HAIR!