My Quarter Life Crisis

Quarter Life Crisis

Hello Everyone! I know it's been a while and I do indeed apologize for that. July really kicked my butt; physically, emotionally, and mentally. I lost my grandma at the end of June, and that was the start to my July. It's been tough for me, but I ‘m working on getting in a better space. I realized that I’m having a quarter life crisis. I know what you're thinking, and I can assure you I'm not being dramatic (this time lol.) I really went into a dark and sad place. Not the fun side of a life crisis that we see on tv.

I relapsed on my positivity challenge, because hey I'm only human. I started to focus on all the bad in my life. How I'm not where I want to be, how I have no idea what's next, and how I'm going to be stuck forever. All I wanted to do was lay in bed and cry, and as we all know I really, really, REALLY hate crying. The worst part about it all is I didn't even feel better when I started to write. It just made me cry more because, I started to think of how I want to be further in my writing.

“Everything is wrong and I can’t fix it.” Is what I keep (cause I’m still going through) thinking. I don’t want to be overwhelmed, frustrated, or miserable anymore. You all know the saying that misery loves company and I found myself dumping my misery on everybody. I don’t want to be that person. So I decided to try and get myself out of this funk. I’m in the process of reading a self-help book (and I am not ashamed) to start working towards progression. So far, I’m practicing a few tips from the book and I’m noticing a difference in my approach.

Right now I feel like I’m moving towards the more fun side of my quarter life crisis. The YOLO side. I made a very impulsive decision to switch from Apple to Samsung. When I say impulsive I mean, I saw the commercial one night and ordered it the next day. I should receive it before the week is over. I can admit I’ve had mini panics since I’ve ordered it. But honestly, I’m excited for the change. I have another impulsive decision of cutting my hair off (again.) I want it short. A fresh beginning. I have that appointment scheduled for Tuesday. This decision is nerve-wreaking because I’m praying I have the head size for this lol.

I feel like these impulsive decisions are giving me my mojo back (because that’s what the YOLO side of a life crisis does.) I may be scared of the changes, but I embrace them. Who knows, these small decisions may have a huge impact in the future. I will, of course, give you an update next month about my new phone and debut my new haircut. Thank you all for being patient with me and embracing my flaws.