What does letting go feel like?

What does letting go feel like?

We sometimes have a hard time letting go. I know I say it all the time, but I never express how it feels. We hold on to feelings that weigh us down. We cry, get angry and constantly carry that pain with us from day-to-day. But what happens when we just let go? It’s not like someone waved a magic wand and made all of those feelings go away. Letting go takes a lot of effort.

You may have to forgive. Forgive whoever hurt you, and most importantly forgive yourself. I tend to punish myself for being me. Nice, helpful, and understanding. Willing to put myself on the line for people that will never do the same for me.

“It’s your fault for being dumb.”

Over and over I’ll replay my actions and say that to myself. It took me 25 years to realize that, that’s just the person I am. I can’t be mad at myself or try to change myself from being a unicorn. Once I’d realized that, moving on became a little easier for me.

I also had to let go of my inner demons: doubt, anxiety and depression. With doubt, I had to constantly look it in the face and make a liar out of it. Doubt is not your friend, it wants to hold you back. It doesn’t want you to know your worth, but you are indeed worthy. You have an idea; research, make a game plan, and try it. You may fail and so what; you did it and that’s all that matters. Doubt can literally stop you before you begin and you can’t allow that.

Doubt leads to anxiety and anxiety is just a distraction. It causes chaos in your mind. You can’t concentrate without worrying about the inevitable. I had to tell anxiety that it can’t stop my greatness. It wants me confused and panicking. It wants to tell me to give up. I couldn’t listen. I had to find peace. I prayed for peace in my heart and peace in my mind. I fought against every bad thought and I overcame. I believed in myself and that made a huge difference.

That didn’t’ stop depression from creeping up on me. The ultimate distraction. The distraction that kept me from doing anything I loved. Smile and joke around others and beat myself down behind closed doors. I wasted my talents. I didn’t even want to try. But I had to. We have to write or sing or dance our way through it. I pushed myself to write when I didn’t feel anything. Now I feel everything. The more I pushed through the lighter I felt. I couldn’t just sit there with no interest and no purpose. We have a purpose.

So again, what does letting go feel like? It feels like perseverance. It feels like a weight that’s been lifted off of your shoulders. It feels like peace. Most importantly, it feels like self-love taking over every inch of your body. We have to love ourselves through it all, then make room for others to love us too. We are more than good enough. We deserve to live our lives the way we want to: without hurt feelings, doubt, anxiety, and depression. We will win. It all starts with letting go.